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Monday, March 29, 2004 + Good night :) +

It has been a nice weekend spent resting, fighting off flu and playing Everquest lol. :)

As expected it's over and I've still got so many things to do. Weekends just never last as long as they ought to. :( Anyway, I'm gonna go do my chores and then go to bed soon or I won't get up in time for school tomorrow. :P Sigh it's Monday again. :P

Thank you for the hugs it makes me smile knowing you've stopped by. And the graphics are really cute too hehehe. :) Good night world, time to start another week!

glittermissy @ 12:03 AM + + Permalink

Friday, March 26, 2004 + HUG ME! +

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Just something cute I found. Could come in useful when you've stopped by to visit but don't feel like leaving me a message. Just hug me! I'm going to place this under "Fun Stuff", right above my tag board. :)

C'mon be a sweetie now and HUG ME! :D

glittermissy @ 3:35 PM + + Permalink

+ Just lemme alone +

That bloody "Roger" guy has done it again. After the police rang him on Monday to warn him, I've since received two more text messages from him. One on Monday night, and one just a few minutes ago.

I called the police investigator again but he wasn't there so I'll have to wait for him to get back to me.

That bloody dickheaded prick (please excuse my language), he's really asking for it. If he really pushes this too far I'll make damn sure he's gonna regret it and I'll also make life miserable for him, like he's done to me. Bloody sonofabitch.

I just want to be left alone!

Okay okay. I won't let him get to me. He doesn't even deserve this amount of effort and emotion from me. Hmph. I will be cold, aloof, unaffected.

Tom, you don't even have to come bounce him around for me. In my cold, aloof and unaffectedness (LOL) I'd be happy to do it myself. :P

glittermissy @ 11:06 AM + + Permalink

Thursday, March 25, 2004 + More more more! +

You are the Goddess of Water. You are a very
loving, you show your emotions out in the open.
You are full of wisdom. Also dreamy... You
would rather be sleeping then awake. But are
still very happy. You are most inspiration to
the other Four Goddesses since without water
there wouldn't be life.
Other Water Goddesses: Aphrodite, Isis, Mariamne,
Mari, Tiamat, Yemaya, Ran, Kupala, Salacia

Which of the Four Elemental Goddesses are you?(With Pics)
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glittermissy @ 3:37 PM + + Permalink

+ Killing time +

Have I done these before? They seem rather familiar but what the heck. :P

GAME BOY - Born to Play

A GAME-BOY. Youre like a tomboy without the love of
sports. Reality sucks, but as long as you have
your electronics you feel you can cope. Time
goes unnoticed when youre locked in your room
hooked up to your Nintendo, rocking to your
favourite collection of guitar-driven albums.
Your virtues: Intelligence, sense-of-humour,
individuality.
Your flaws: Inability to cope with real life,
action-freak spirit, reclusive nature.

Your Personality type is the only type that would
like this cool Vampire Game:

www.life-blood.vze.com

What kind of girl are you?
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You're Perfect ^^

-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which
means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
care about presents or about going to fancy
placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
being around your boyfriend.

What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
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You have a heartsick soul! Youre the type of girl
who always has a crush and is writing their
name on all your books. You are a hopeless
romantic. Waiting for that prince charming, you
take love seriously, but still play any chance
you get. You can have a lot if boys who are
friends, but waiting for that perfect
boyfriend. Sometimes you are discouraged
because there are no sparks but even if the
smallest thing happens, youre on Cloud 9. You
believe in true love and wait for it. Just dont
be afraid to take a chance. Love is all about
risks.

What Kind of SOUL do you posses? (For Girls only) Incredible Anime Pictures!
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Morpheus

?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
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fallen2

Your wings are BROKEN and tattered. You are
an angelic spirit who has fallen from grace for
one reason or another - possibly, you made one
tragic mistake that cost you everything. Or
maybe you were blamed for a crime you didn't
commit. In any case, you are faithless and
joyless. You find no happiness, love, or
acceptance in your love or in yourself. Most
days are a burden and you wonder when the
hurting will end. Sweet, beautiful and
sorrowful, you paint a tragic and touching
picture. You are the one that few understand.
Those that do know you are likely to love you
deeply and wish that they could do something to
ease your pain. You are constantly living in
memories of better times and a better world.
You are hard on yourself and self-critical or
self-loathing. Feeling rejected and unloved,
you are sensitive, caring, deep, and despite
your tainted nature, your soul is
breathtakingly beautiful.

This last one is interesting. Maybe a little too close to the truth for comfort?

Image is a painting by Natalya Nesterova,
source:ca80.lehman.cuny.edu/.../
images/fallen_angel.jpg

*~*~*Claim Your Wings - Pics and Long Answers*~*~*
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glittermissy @ 11:14 AM + + Permalink

+ Some kind of wonderful +

I can finally heave a sigh of relief since the 'psycho killer' has finally stopped sending me stupid text messages. I may be speaking too soon, but I haven't received anything since Monday night (after the police called him). He should be bloody grateful that I didn't take any further action. He could jolly well be a 'psycho killer', or as my bestest friend said, 'a sad lonely man'. Whoever and whatever he is, I just hope he isn't bothering other people with unwanted attention as well. :(

This week the year 2s have been having their March Common Tests, and the year 1s are busy having their (2nd) orientation so there are no lessons just for this week. It's been quite a blessing having no lessons because my brain is still stuck in a long drawn out 'total shut down' from the March break. Hopefully by the end of this week my energy, adrenaline and focus will kick back in and I'll be able to tackle the rest of this term with more gusto than I have now.

I've been staying over at John's which is very nice - we get to spend more time together and I get to wake up later to go to college. :P It's always such a hassle for him when I stay over but he does it anyway. :) His parents are usually very nice to me and I always feel so bad for troubling them. But I suppose they like having someone to fuss over until their first grandchild (it's a girl!) arrives in April. :D It's going to be an exciting time for them, and for John's family. John's going to be an uncle! Lol somehow the thought of that makes me laugh. He's such a slacker on the outside with such attitude but I can just picture him babying his niece. Awwww... ;)

More good news - my Principal approved me going to Italy in July! :D I couldn't believe how easy it was really. She has been really busy with appeals this year (somehow the parents of students and the students themselves seem really desperate in wanting to come to TJC). She wanted to speak with me about a student and I went to see her. After that was settled I said I had something to speak with her about and asked if I should bring it up another time. She asked me what it was and I gave her the letter from the choir. She barely read it and all I said was that Jenn (who conducts TJC's choir too) is bringing us to an international choral competition. After I told her the dates and all, all she said was, "I think it'll be a good experience and good exposure for you" and she signed her approval. LOL I was taken aback at how supportive she appeared. She seemed more concerned with whether we'll be able to find a teacher to come in to relieve me whilst I'm away.

So what's left is to get the application for leave approved by the Ministry and I'm off. :D :D :D Italy, here I come!

Gotta stop going shopping - at least, stop spending money when I'm out shopping. LOL. Wooohooo! It sure feels nice, having something so wonderful to look forward to after all the rubbish that's been going on in my life recently.

glittermissy @ 11:04 AM + + Permalink

Tuesday, March 23, 2004 + Irony +

What an irony.

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glittermissy @ 9:26 AM + + Permalink

+ Something to believe in +

The guy hasn't stopped sending me text messages even though the police has called him to warn him. Should I press charges?

I feel so sorry for John. He's been so nice to me and so worried as well. He's been exceptionally sweet and attentive through my irrational fits of differring emotions. I just wish I could close my eyes, go to sleep and when I wake up everything would be okay. And then John wouldn't have to worry about me or about what that f***** really intends. At times I see the rage in his eyes, with every text that I receive that say banal things like "I want to spend a night with you and love you forever." I even received one obscene message from him with a couple having intercourse and the message read "Sex Murder Art".

But I have to try to not let him win. I know I shouldn't even be letting this get to me, but it is and I can't help it. God only knows what else he knows about me, whether he has my address, my email address, my IC number... Whatever it is, I'm not going to let him win. With every message that he sends to distress me, it makes what John and I share stronger. Also it's when you are in trouble do you find out who your true friends are. So maybe this is a blessing in disguise. Whatever it is I have to keep believeing that it's happening for a reason and it is something to be learnt from.

glittermissy @ 8:45 AM + + Permalink

Friday, March 19, 2004 + Stalked +

Okay. This is really starting to freak me out.

Two nights ago I received a phone call from a weird guy. He claimed he works with Starhub and called me. The first thing he asked is whether I'm a foreigner or a Singaporean. Alarm bells started ringing in my head. I asked him what difference would me being a local or not make. He replied saying my name "Pah-mah-lah" (GRRR) sounds like a foreign name. I was like WHAT?! So I asked him in very snide tones, what the purpose of the call is and demanded to know who he was. He was evasive, saying he's from Starhub and he just called to check (later on I realized, it was "chat" and not "check"!). I asked him where he got my details from and he said, internal details. I was like WHAT?! I said, Hello, Starhub employees DO NOT call customers up to ask them things like are you a foreigner at 10.30pm at night!! He went on to say I just called to check/chat. I hung up the phone after finally prying his name out of him - Roger. I have no idea whether that is true or not.

Yesterday I received a phonecall from a mobile number that isn't stored in my phone. Of course, it could have been a prospective year 1 student or something, or another one of those anxious parents calling regarding appealing into the college. But when I picked up and said hello? hello? hello? all I heard was sounds of traffic coming from the other end. No voice, no nothing but traffic. Immediately I thought, "Shit. It's that dodgy guy stalking me."

Well, it's okay. I have his landline number stored on my phone now from his phone call that night. If more weird things go on, John will call him and warn him muahahaha. If these strange things don't stop, I'm gonna make a police report. He was stupid enough to call using a landline, giving me his number. Muahahahaha.

God I'm being stalked. I don't have a lot of money nor power. He must be some psycho who thinks I'm pretty. LOL. ARGH.

glittermissy @ 11:27 AM + + Permalink

Thursday, March 18, 2004 + Living in Luxury +

The week is coming to its inevitable close and I have 3 days more to make the most of whatever time I have to myself before school starts again.

Today I had a nice time pampering myself - something I haven't done in a long time. I've been religiously following my skincare regime and using my haircare products properly. It's a wonder what exfoliation does to your skin. =P This afternoon I went for a spa therapy pedi and a mani at Visage at Orchard Delfi - it was a UOB Lady's Card promotion. On the whole I enjoyed the experience - it was comfortable and soothing unlike some nail bars where you sit there for an hour or so in a hard plastic chair.... ICK. I think I would be happier with today's session if the manicurist didn't cut my finger. LOL. =P

I met John in the evening and we got our his/hers watch bracelets shortened. =) They were gifts from our friends in celebration of our engagement - a pair of very nice DKNY brushed steel watches with bluish-purple faces. Nice. =) We had a nice, healthy dinner at Subway and went shopping after that. I bought myself a Pingu VCD. Lol. I'm a real sucker for cute kids programmes (not the ultra-cutesy ones mind you). I remember watching Pingu sometime ago either as a kid or a kid at heart and couldn't resist. =P I saw a lovely pair of slip-ons at Aldo (70% sale!!!!!!!) which I wanted to buy but this particular pair was nett price. ARGH. =P

Anyway, materialism aside it was a very nice evening that I shared with John. We haven't been out like this in a while - most days I bunk over at his place and we just stay indoors the whole evening after dinner. Saturdays I have choir and Sundays I have voice lessons. My working week usually runs like clockwork with nothing much out of the ordinary taking place. This is probably what makes me feel more and more restricted and repressed after a while. Perhaps I've been spoilt by my lifestyle during my Uni days in London. I made decisions to do stuff based on whether I felt up to it or not, instead of whether I could afford the time or not. The way my life is now, I don't do much during term time either because I just don't have the time or the physical/mental energy to. That makes me one very grouchy teacher. I don't know if the pace of life here is just like that, or whether I'm just having a hard time adjusting back to the way things are at home. If it's the latter, then I wonder if I will ever adjust back to life here. It's simply too much, too routine, too restricted for my liking.

Thank God for school holidays. It is such a luxury to not have to worry about getting up at some ungodly hour. Speaking of luxury, I really like that pair of Aldo shoes.........

glittermissy @ 11:16 PM + + Permalink

Tuesday, March 16, 2004 + Charging +

I'm going to take some time off to sort my life, thoughts and things out. I know a week's break isn't going to be long enough but hopefully by Sunday night I'll feel a little more rested and recharged to last another 10 weeks of school before the June break. :P

Yeah, I took the plunge and got myself an iPod and GAWD I'M SO BROKE NOW. It's the best MP3 player ever made I'm sure. :P

Have a good week everyone.

glittermissy @ 9:50 PM + + Permalink

Wednesday, March 10, 2004 + And the winner is......... +

Ladies and gentlemen, boys and girls. It has come to this. The nominees are:

1. Creative Nomad MuVo2 (Squared) - 1.5 gigs or 4 gigs
2. Creative Nomad Jukebox Zen NX - 20 gigs
3. Apple IPod (probably 20 gigs)

Please cast your votes. :P

glittermissy @ 1:38 PM + + Permalink

Tuesday, March 09, 2004 + Here I come! +

I lost my thumb drive! :*(

I'm seldom this careless so I can't believe that it's gone. I was really upset at first but then again, it's just an inanimate object. Sure I lost a few files but that teaches me a lesson in always backing up my things. Sure I was a little attached to the thing, but well I guess things happen.

I know it isn't a big fortune that I lost, but I'm glad that even for something like this I'm able to appreciate what I have.

It's funny though, how the human mind works. I distinctly remember stopping the device on my computer so I could safely remove it, before shutting down my computer. And I remember the things I did after I left the office. I just can't seem to remember whether or not I pulled the drive out from my computer and whether I put it into my bag. Isn't it strange how the memory can be so selective? I even remember taking it out of my bag and lamenting the scratches that were on it. :P Sigh.

Well, I won't let this spoil my day today even though it added to how crappy yesterday was.

Yesterday was a totally crappy day. I woke up with a headache. I lost my thumb drive. I was half soaked as some passing car splashed water on me. I was cold most of the day because it poured all day. I couldn't find a copy of my grade 5 music theory cert even though I was so sure I had lots of copies made the last time. I had to dig through the mess that's my room now and finally found the original in the storeroom. I hit my head against the damn metal shelf and the top of my head is really sore now. Almost fell on the way down the stairs. Quarrelled with John at night and cried. It wasn't even Friday the 13th!

All in all, I should be one heck of a grumpy and jaded teacher now. But I'm not going to let myself slip into that again. New MP3 player HERE I COME!!!

glittermissy @ 8:15 AM + + Permalink

Thursday, March 04, 2004 + Heart attack +

I'm better (again!) now, thank you to those who have shown me concern the past few days, I really appreciate it.

I think I ought to clear up a misunderstanding - I've been overly harsh with myself and especially with my comments on a female colleague of mine. She has been very nice to me recently, probably noticing that I've been stressed and maybe I've misunderstood her. Perhaps I've known all along that she's really a nice person which is why it upsets me so much whenever she isn't nice. Everyone has off days, especially me! So I should know better than to judge her from a few not so pleasant incidents.

The A Level results are coming out tomorrow. Well, they've been sitting on Singapore soil for a while now I'm sure, but tomorrow, all shall be revealed! Good luck everyone! Hope I don't die of heart attack when we see the music results. :P

glittermissy @ 4:00 PM + + Permalink

Tuesday, March 02, 2004 + Bitch +

I've just made John unhappy with me again.

I've been so tired even 2 weeks before the concert on Saturday that I haven't been myself. I don't have time to myself to stop and think things through, to relax, to forget about things that make me unhappy.

Maybe he's right, he's been doing a lot for me and I haven't been appreciative. I've been grumpy, tired, reliant, bitchy, irritated, impatient and who knows what else. Just think of the most ingrateful and bitchy girlfriend you can and that's probably me the past few weeks.

I don't want anybody's sympathy. If you're really care about me, give me the space to be a horrible person for a while and turn normal again. And not hold it against me. I'm not the perfect teacher, girlfriend, friend, daughter. I'm not the perfect anything. If you can't deal with that, and with the fact that I'm a person who needs time to myself once in a while, tell me so and I'll take myself out of your life and spare us both the misery.

I'm tired of being pulled in so many different directions at once.

I'm tired of always having to answer for my actions.

I'm tired of having an unending flow of things to do.

I'm tired of having deadlines to meet all the time.

I'm tired of trying to please everyone, and of getting told off when I fail to do so.

I'm tired of living according to rules made by others.

I'm tired of having to live my life as dictated by others.

I'm tired of having a set of unspoken expectations placed on me.

I DON'T WANT TO HAVE ANYONE TO ANSWER TO EXCEPT MYSELF AND GOD. And John.

I'm just so tired of everything. I don't see the point in anything anymore.

glittermissy @ 1:31 PM + + Permalink

Monday, March 01, 2004 + Violently repenting +

Something interesting to kick start another week of work, work and more work.

Kinda blasphemous I think. :( And if I remember correctly, only Catholics believe in Purgatory?

The Dante's Inferno Test has sent you to Purgatory!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	High
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Moderate
Level 2 (Lustful)	High
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Moderate
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	Very Low
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	Low
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very Low
Level 7 (Violent)	High
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	Moderate
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Low

Take the Dante's Inferno Hell Test

I'm violent and lustful? At least I'm a repenting believer. ;) Have a good week ahead guys.

glittermissy @ 8:23 AM + + Permalink