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Tuesday, December 23, 2003 + If you're happy and you know it, thank your friends +

Back from my first ever concert with SYC at the Esplanade recital studio. It was full house - but not like the studio is very big anyway. :P The concert was a pretty short one. Christmas themed, it had a good range of music which I think most of the choristers enjoyed singing. It seems a nice way of leading up to Christmas. Ever since my family stopped celebrating Christmas it seems like apart from how I personally feel about Christmas, my Christmases never feel very Christmassy. Lol. However tonight's concert left me feeling happy and practically benevolent. :P

Also it was very nice to have been in a concert with my best girlfriend. Knowing that we were there making music for others and enjoying the same music at the same time - having this shared experience enriches our friendship. She was so sweet the other day, she said, "Have I ever told you how great it is that you're in SYC?"

My parents have been nice to each other and to me too which makes me happy. I think they were finally getting tired of being nasty and decided that it's much easier on everyone's nerves to just be nice. I'm glad, after a very tense year for me this is such a lovely way to end off the year, which also bodes well for the coming year.

John has been very sweet to me too. Knowing how we get so stressed, tired and short of time during the school term he has been really nice to me ever since his exams ended. I guess every couple fights - as long as the good things outweigh the bad we can't really ask for more. :)

I got to talk to my bestest friend for a bit today. Talking to him always cheers me up - both him (and John) have this way of making me laugh when all else fails. :) We haven't spoken in a while so it was a good conversation we had today. Somehow I always feel so rewarded at the end of our chats. He is just about the only person I've met who is able to read my volatile mood swings instantaneously. If I were someone else I don't think I'd be able to read myself as well as he does. It's like he has this 6th sense or something lol.

So at the end of this exciting day I'm left feeling tired but happy. I don't remember the last time I ever felt as restful and .... happy.... as I do now. Think I've been feeling restless for sooo long. But I guess that makes me appreciate such happiness even more. For that, I can't complain.

glittermissy @ 1:02 AM + + Permalink

Saturday, December 20, 2003 + Ok Pocky! +

Ok. I just absolutely have to post this one. :)

what flavor pocky are you?

[c] sugardew

Yummie. My favourite-st pocky of them all. :) Apart from chocolate, strawberry, chocolate with almonds.... argh I like them all!

glittermissy @ 11:29 PM + + Permalink

+ Catch a falling dream +

I've changed my layout yet again. This one reminds me very much of my old diaryland diary, especially the colours. Although 'Catch a falling star' doesn't quite go with my theme of '(purple) book' it did remind me of a song by Boy Meets Girl that I used to like a lot - "Waiting for a Star to Fall". I think it was used in the movie 3 Men and a Baby... that song sure brings back memories.

The new layout reflects some of the changes I've been through lately. It looks a little more gloomy and understated (apart from the text which is part of the image and I lack the skill in image editing to remove it). I'm not exactly more gloomy, but maybe more introspective of late. I like it though, some days there's nothing like just sitting in my room with my favourite music on and pondering the meaning of life... ;) Seriously I'm not a person who craves company all the time. There are days when I need to retreat into my shell and nurse my dreams and thoughts in private. I'm someone who treasures and enjoys time to myself. Whenever it's the school term and I feel like my life is nothing but an endless and meaningless succession of things to be done, alternating between sleep-commute-work-commute-sleep and I don't get time off to retreat back into my little shell, I become really crabby and I start to lose myself. I really hate that.

Also it's PMS time again. Which reminds me of something - a lady I used to know once commented that she found it odd how I'm so open about PMS and the 'monthly thing' even with my male friends. What's so weird about it? Isn't it part of life (well, for females anyway) and a natural occurance? I don't go into graphic detail about it but I don't see what's wrong with mentioning it. Anyway it's my blog, I can say whatever I want. :P

My favourite season is autumn but Christmas is just one of those special times during the year that I really like. I think that a big portion of my sentimentality (is there even such a word??) towards Christmas originates from happy childhood memories of trees, lights, presents and yummy food. LOL. Not forgetting the excuse to stay up late, watch cartoons all day, play all day and not do homework because it's school vacation. :) Some things never change no matter how old we get, I reckon. :)

I had another dream again. I was living with my real-life family at 'home' - not the home that I know in real-life though. It was a place I don't recognize. Anyway I was either looking for something in my bedroom or I was asked to look for something in the house. I remember I was looking through the items lying around alone. There were other people in the house - either my parents or visitors, I didn't really notice. Anyway someone came up to me and offered some help. I looked up - he was someone I don't know in real-life/didn't know in the dream. But he seemed somehow familiar. It's strange, he was very tall, lean and had shoulder-length brown hair.

This person seems to have appeared in previous dreams although his face changes from dream to dream. Noooo it's not exactly what you're thinking LOL he seems to be someone who knows me very well. And he seems someone who I know very well too but I haven't met before. Does that make any sense? That's how it feels. If there were such things as a soul mate, he feels like he's my soul mate. I can't describe it, it's not about male-female love/lust/whatever you want to call it. It feels like something more fundamental than that.

Anyway these dreams always leave me feeling mixed up and strange because they seem so real. Then again I might be over-analyzing things (as I'm fond of doing).

glittermissy @ 11:18 PM + + Permalink

Tuesday, December 16, 2003 + Hamster heaven +

Another one of my hamsters just died. =*(

There was some problem with the database of my comments thing and it seems that lots of people have lost their shout outs. I know I've lost all my previous ones too. Thanks for your comments guys, seems like we have to start again.

I'm just getting the photos I took in Thailand off my digital camera. Gonna look for a good site on which I can put them up. Any recommendations?

glittermissy @ 1:24 PM + + Permalink

+ No presents for Christmas +

Wowee is it the 15th of December already? I just can't believe that I've gone and returned from my trip. It seemed just a day ago when I wrote the last post here. Here I am back in one piece with some very nice memories of the past 6 days. In a way I can't help but feel a little pang of regret that it went by so quickly. John and I don't get very much time just being happy together without having to worry about school - him: his school work and exams and stuff, and me: school=work.

I'm much too tired to really write much about my trip except that we really enjoyed ourselves and I think it was money well spent. Given the chance we'd definately do something like that again. :) The next time we could probably take another trip like this is next December, which seems way way to far away. Hey it's only a year I know, but then when is the next time you can go play without worrying ever soon enough?

Christmas is only 10 days away. I don't exactly celebrate Christmas but somehow it's still my most favourite time of the year. I reckon it's a mixture of happy memories of Christmases from my childhood days, as well as having a wonderful fiance to spend them with now. I love shopping for gifts for my loved ones even though I always have absolutely no idea what to buy them. Since I was introduced to John's family I've been having Christmas dinner with them. His mum and dad are Catholics and they do the traditional turkey/roast beef, Christmas tree, presents and big gatherings. I'm not always the most comfortable with big groups of people but even when I just sit in a corner holding John's hand, watching his family and relatives having so much fun I feel all nice, warm and fuzzy inside. From a non-religious point of view I reckon that Christmas isn't about giving and getting presents or good food. It's really about being with the people you love and really appreciating having them in your lives. Although we really ought to be doing this all year round - if having a day or 12 to take them for granted less, why not eh? :)

This Christmas season I'm thankful for how fortunate my life has been. We can always be smarter, richer, better looking, more successful and etc. But I think being happy is often just a matter of perspective. I know, it's an easy thing to say and horrendously hard to do when you're down in the dumps (believe me, I get depressed easily and I'm temperemental so I should know!). Most of all I'm thankful for 4 things in particular: that even though I don't know what my parents plan to do next at least things seem to be on the mend for now. That I have John by my side and to be with. That I have such wonderful friends who still care even though we're so caught up in our own problems and jobs, especially for the one in a million chance and unlikely circumstance in which I met my bestest friend. That I have a job that can be stressful and upsetting at times, it also means I want for nothing and don't have to be someone who thinks life is aimless, a person who is peniless, jobless and hungry. I may not own a closet full of designer clothes, nor do I own Prada bags. I might not live in a big house nor own a big car. I am neither famous, terribly popular nor terribly good looking. But I reckon I'm fortunate in having been brought up to be a person who tries to be honest, sincere and loyal. And when I look at all the nice things that others richer than I possess and feel the slightest twinge of envy (well, who doesn't?), I'm thankful that I'm able to stop and tell myself that I don't need such things to have a meaningful life nor be a happy person. :)

I've always looked to getting nice presents at Christmas but this year I can honestly say for the first time that I'm not thinking of receiving anything at all. I just like the atmosphere of people appreciating the people in their lives and how magical this season feels. And I think that makes me a happier person than all the big cars, designer items and fame can ever bring me. :) Even if someone were to want to give me a present, the best present I think would be simply them appreciating me in their lives.

glittermissy @ 1:12 AM + + Permalink

Tuesday, December 09, 2003 + Ready, set, go! +

I'm all packed and ready to go. Managed to find the correct adaptor for Thailand, bought plasters, lozenges, sweets and stationery so I'm all set. :) Do you reckon 4 1/2 rolls of film is enough? :P

I'm going to bring my mobile along as Singtel has a pay-as-you-roam thingie which is automatically activated for all subscribers. However Winnie said that it costs 60 cents per text message I send. Ouch! But no matter. There are definately things in life more important than money. And money can be made. :P

I'm going to take lots and lots of photos when I'm there. :) I'll try to get more of me taken LOL I always take photos of what I see instead of photos showing what I see with me in them. :) So does that mean I'm not an egomaniac? :P

I'm much too excited to really reflect on much today so I'll just waste some time doing a random survey. :) Maybe you'll find out something interesting about me. Hehe. If you don't like such things STOP READING HERE. If you want to try and discover some dirty, juicy secret about me well don't say I didn't warn ya. :P Here goes.

1. you are a famous musician. what five things do you insist are in your dressing room before each performance?
:: Ice cold water, my favourite chocolate, my music to look through before going on stage, my teddy bear and my bestest friend (though he really should be in the audience hahaha).

2. when was the last time you went skinny-dipping?
::Does taking a shower count? Last night.

3. your co-worker/fellow student has bad breath. do you tell them? if so, how?
::I offer him/her a mint.

4. what kind of fruit best describes you? why?
::Hmm this is a tough one. I'd say a lychee or a longan - a semi tough shell on the outside, soft and mushy on the inside, but with a stubborn pit. Hehehe.

5. what kind of food is your friend?
::My friend? Which one? My boyfriend - Mango. Nice, pleasant and almost mild with a stubborn streak inside. My bestest friend - I'd say he's a lychee or a longan too. Just like me!

6. write your obituary, in 3,2,1 go!
::How morbid. Okay this would be it: "Here lies Pamela an untropical longan who only came out of her shell when in the company of certain fruit. She aspired to be a musician, artist, writer and photographer all at once but was really just a slacker."

7. what is the last good deed someone did for you?
::My bestest friend - taking the time to really sit and listen to me and understand. :)

8. if you had triplet daughters today, what would you name them?
::Chocolate, brownie and cookie. LOL. Seriously umm Siobhan (pronounced sheVAUGHN), Talulah (te-LOO-lah) and Niobe (nigh-OH-be). Strong, independent and beautiful. :)

9. what is the one thing you wish you could tell your parents?
::That I love them even though they drive me nuts and I'm thankful for the way they brought me up, problems and all.

10. how about zits? pop 'em or just let 'em fix themselves?
::Squeeze. Definately. Mine don't go away - they lurk around and get worse if I don't squeeze the living daylights out of them.

11. someone tells a joke and everyone gets it but you. do you laugh along or ask them to explain?
::I'm not so egoistic as to laugh along. I'd ask them.

12. name the most unsung hero you know of
::Hmm... can't think of any. He/She is probably so unsung that I've yet to discover him/her. :P

13. youre on instant message with a heart-broken friend. suddenly that guy/girl youve been wanting to cyber im's you. what do you do?
::Cyber? Is that whay I think it is? I'd stay with my heart-broken friend and reply to this other person sporadically.

14. if you could hypnotize someone for one day who would it be and what would you have them do?
::I'd hypnotize myself, videotape/record it all down so I understand myself better.

15. you're home alone and you run out of toilet-paper. what do you do?
::Umm... Go out and buy some? Duh.

16. did you have and imaginary friend? what was her/his/its name? what did you do together? when did she/he/it leave you?
::Never had one. But I used to talk to my teddy bears. :)

17. what is the one super-power you'd like to have. why?
::It's a toss up between flying and teleportation.

18. what is the nicest compliment anyone has ever given you?
::That I'm his dream girl.

19. what is your favorite type of accent? other than your own.
::Scottish.

20. whats the best gift you've ever given?
::Can I say myself? LOL. The gift I give to a very select few is my trust.

21. what is the craziest thing you've ever done to get someone you like to notice you?
::Run around naked. HAHAHA. I'm not that attention-seeking. I've not done anything crazy.

22. if forced to choose, would you eat wet or dry cat food?
::I'd take the dry and feed it to the next cat I see.

23. if they made a movie about your life, who would you want to play you?
::My bestest male friend. HAHAHAHAHAHA.

24. what is your sexiest feature?
::I don't know. Ask John. Or Tom.

25. what is your pin number?
::1800-Buy-Pam-Chocs

26. youre a rapper. make up a rap about clean socks. or dont. this one is optional. what the hell am i saying? they're all optional. rap, damn you!
::CLEAN SOCKS! (a riff of catchy beats) CLEAN SOCKS! (repeat riff) CLEAN SOCKS! (repeat riff) you know the drill.

27. congratulations! you have just won one million dollars! you can only spend it in one store. what store do you pick?
::One store? Or one mall? It if were one store I'd say HMV in London. One mall hmmm a toss up between Takashimaya and Heeren.

28. what were you for halloween last year?
::Far too busy enjoying the candy to be anything hahaha... I don't celebrate halloween.

29. if you are in a store and the cashier undercharged you would you let her know?
::Yeah.

30. what if you were in a store and the cashier overcharged you and you didnt notice and she noticed at the last minute and gave you back the difference would you thank her?
::Of course. For her honesty and willingness to admit her mistake.

31. can you touch your nose with your tongue?
::No. My tongue isn't that long and neither is my nose that big. I think.

32. if you could change your name, what would you change it to?
:: I wouldn't. Then I won't be Pam anymore. :(

33. whats your favorite cuss word?
::Depends on the situation. It's either SHIT!!! or WHAT?!?!? Nothing beyond that in school. But outside of school WTF? or FUUUCCCKKK!!!

34. how often do you shower? (this one's for you freaktard!)
::At least once a day.

35. what is your favorite city?
::I wouldn't know till I've seen them all.

36. when you blow your nose do you look at the contents of the tissue?
::Sometimes - sounds gross but to check the status of my health I reckon.

37. tell me the story of one of your scars. (accidental, not self-inflicted) (unless it was self-inflicted by accident)
::It can't be seen but when I was a kid (I think 4-5 years old) I fell and cut my head on a glass coffee table in my living room. Had it stitched up in the hospital. Probably explains why I'm a little neurotic from time to time.

38. you are invisible for one day. where do you go and what do you do?
::Visit my bestest friend and freak him out. :P

39. what is your most prized possesion?
::Hmm existing and being able to experience and possess.

40. what do you think would be the worst way to die?
::Slowly and all alone.

glittermissy @ 3:13 PM + + Permalink

+ Life without the internet +

Funny, they haven't wiped my computer in school but I probably shouldn't say that too soon! I reckon I'll come back from my holiday to find that my lovely LOTR wall paper and all my 'illegal' programmes are gone! *screams*

Can't really believe I'll be leaving tomorrow night. It feels too unreal - even though we planned it a good few weeks beforehand I still can't believe I'm going away for a while. I'm looking forward to it though, to take in new sights, explore and just let myself forget about work for a little while. :) Not forgetting the shopping there as well as duty free at the airport hehehe... :P

I'm going to miss my hamsters and my teddy bears. And my laptop. And my hifi. Basically my room but that isn't the point of going away is it? Lol. I know I will miss EQ and MSN. ;)

glittermissy @ 10:59 AM + + Permalink

Monday, December 08, 2003 + 2 Allens to go please +

Just an Escaflowne related side note:

I wonder what's worse - being stuck between Van and Allen or being stuck between two Allens??

glittermissy @ 6:40 PM + + Permalink

Thursday, December 04, 2003 + Music, feelings and dreams +

You know those survey thingies that we all sometimes get asking us to describe ourselves in 3 words or less? My answer is always 'dreamer' - in a very literal sense too.

All my life I've always had dreams that felt very real - so real that I can remember the physical and emotional sensations years after the dream occured. I've had so many dreams, I'm going to briefy list some of them here so I don't forget. But out of all these dreams I find there are two main events that recur over the years. One of them is of me being with someone I don't know in real life but yet it feels like I've always known ( I can never seen this person's face ). The other is always of me being on some kind of journey - either I'm moving house to some place I don't know in real life, or that I'm on some kind of journey. Sometimes I'm with friends and family in real life, sometimes my family and friends in the dream are people I've absolutely never met before in my life.

Dreams of being with someone I've not met in real life:
1. 15 - 16 years old. Some sort of prom. He was a bit taller than me and had dark, longish hair.
2. Seaside, statue of a mermaid. White building with a dragon statue that we had to somehow save. He had dark hair, not much taller than me.
3. School day trip to the moon. I was one of the students waiting to go but I didn't. He had dark short hair and was taller than me.
4. Getting married. Signing contract. Dresses. I didn't know my parents but his parents seemed familiar. He was familiar to me, dark long hair, quite a bit taller.
5. Visiting a friend. Pink coloured house, felt like country side in the UK. He had dark short hair and was quite a bit taller than me. (Why is it always dark?)
6. On holiday. Walking around alone, shop that sold scarves, lovely bits of satin, chiffon and silk. Met someone, dark longish hair, definately taller than me.
7. Visiting my old school. Met old friends. Area around the school seemed different. Sky was a blend of pink-peach-purple-blue. Could see planets. He was familiar in a way, dark short hair, not much taller than me.
8. At a car race early in the morning (before it started). Very grey morning, before dusk. He was tall, dark shoulder length hair.
9. On some sort of trip with friends in Australia. Looking at stars, saw the southern cross. Was with someone again, taller and dark shoulderlength hair.
10. At home but unfamiliar. Just moved into a house, very 80s style. Friend visiting from overseas, a bit taller with dark short hair. For some reason didn't really meet but saw him in passing several times.
11. Back to JC/Sixth Form to visit. In a place I didn't know in real life but was my school in the dream. Went to someone's house - apparently my other half but I didn't know him. Taller than me, lean with longish dark hair. He was an artist who drew and sculpted.
12. (Just dreamt this!) Working in a clothes store in a mall (don't know where) with another person - he was taller than me with longish hair. Can't tell dark or light, seemed to shift.

That's about as many as I can remember right now. Other dreams are those of journeying, of John, of my parents and friends. I don't really know what to make of it all but I can remember each one of them as clearly as if they were events that happened in real life. Ironically, sometimes even more clearly than things I've been through in reality.

I had one particular dream that came true though - of an aunt who returned from overseas and she gave my family a gift. The very next day it really happened! Exactly as it was in the dream! That was rather freaky but exciting lol. I sometimes get feelings of deja vu at particular instances - I can't remember the dreams but at the point in time I know I've been there before. And sometimes I dream of things I doubt could possibly come true. But weeks or months later they really do happen. That's really weird as I don't think much of my situation or what I'm doing until that feeling of deja vu hits me and I realize I dreamt it and didn't think it possible but here I am.

So to give three words to describe myself, I think they would be "Music, Feelings and Dreams".

glittermissy @ 2:21 PM + + Permalink

Wednesday, December 03, 2003 + All shook up +

I had a good chat with a good friend and I'm feeling better. There are some people that you can just talk to about anything and even if you don't end up with a solution or with a conclusion of any sort, you feel better anyway just knowing there's someone there for you and someone truly understands. :)

I'm in school right now - they are finally going to come round and reformat the computers. This probably means no more ICQ/MSN and other illegal software on my computer anymore. :( How sucky is that? And this computer somehow doesn't like java much so the web based ICQ doesn't work properly. Argh.

I have choir tonight - so far I'm enjoying myself there. Jen is incredibly funny and she's nice. Best of all she's a wonderful musician and conductor who's obviously given what she does a lot of thought. Even when she's scolding us for not knowing our music her ideas on what it means to be a musician and a chorister are really provoking and it makes me think about my own role as a music teacher and a musician. Something that I am really thankful for especially when I get bogged with all the administrative work and am blinded to the real reason why I'm teaching.

My thoughts are all jumbled up today, my mind is flitting from one issue to the next like a nervous butterfly. Even as I'm thinking about all the things I need to do right now, just about half of my mind is on the conversation I had with my friend this morning, and all the different conflicting emotions that are swimming around in my mind and heart. I once read somewhere that men tend to feel fewer emotions at any one moment while women are capable of feeling various different emotions (even conflicting) ones at one time. I'm not sure if this is true, but it is certainly true for me.

It just seems so bizarre, being back in school and fulfilling my duties as a teacher here, while at the same time my mind is far, far away on matters so unrelated. It makes everything seem so surreal as if life really were nothing but a long dream. I'm truly trying not to overanalyze things and to be less suicidal in thought (lol I can't think of a better way to describe this) but deep down while I'm happier I just feel all shook up.

glittermissy @ 5:09 PM + + Permalink

+ Fade into oblivion +

Sometimes it seems like I have absolutley no control over my emotions at all. One minute I'm so chirpy and the next I'm sitting here wondering why I feel as much as I do.

I'm just yo-yoing between two extremes - glad that I'm emotionally sensitive and then again, cursing that I'm like that. It's so tiring. I guess life's more exciting like this - especially when you're riding the crest of the wave. But when you're at the bottom of the cycle it feels like you just want to sleep and forget everything...

I think that's what I'll go and do, let my consciousness fade into oblivion and forget everything. I don't feel like figuring out anything anymore.

glittermissy @ 5:03 AM + + Permalink

Tuesday, December 02, 2003 + Escaflowne quizzies +

Just somemore quizzies for fun. :)

You are HITOMI KANZAKI!

ANIME QUIZ - Which Escaflowne Character Are You?
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You're Hitomi Kanzaki!

Find out Which Escaflowne character you are.

Lol.... ;)

glittermissy @ 4:38 PM + + Permalink

+ So emotional +

Got the following passage off Aloka's diary - she got it as an email from a friend. Most of us have probably received such emails at one point or another, but I reckon there's a good reason why these things keep getting circulated. :) It's a little long but if you have the time do read through to the end. I found it pretty meaningful, I think you will too. :)

The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider freeways, but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less; we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom. We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often. We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to life not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We conquered outer space but not inner space. We've done larger things, but not better things.

We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill. It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom. A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or just hit delete.

Remember; spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going to be around forever. Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side. Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a cent.

Remember, to say, "I love you" to your partner and your loved ones, but most of all, mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you. Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be there again. Give time to love, give time to speak, and give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.

HOW TO STAY YOUNG:
Throw out nonessential numbers. This includes age, weight, and height. Let the doctor worry about them. That is why you pay him/her.
Keep only cheerful friends. The grouches pull you down.
Keep learning. Learn more about the computer, crafts, gardening, whatever. Never let the brain idle. "An idle mind is the devil's workshop." And the devil's name is Alzheimer's.
Enjoy the simple things.
Laugh often, long, and loud. Laugh until you gasp for breath.
The tears happen. Endure, grieve, and move on. The only person who is with us our entire life, is ourselves. Be ALIVE while you are alive.
Surround yourself with what you love, whether it's family, pets, keepsakes, music, plants, hobbies, whatever. Your home is your refuge.
Cherish your health: If it is good, preserve it. If it is unstable, improve it. If it is beyond what you can improve, get help.
Don't take guilt trips. Take a trip to the mall, to the next county, to a foreign country, but NOT to where the guilt is.
Tell the people you love that you love them, at every opportunity.
AND ALWAYS REMEMBER: Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away. If you don't send this to at least 8 people... WHO CARES? - written by George Carlin, who recently lost his wife.

I know I'm cranky, stressed, pissed-off, irritable, anti-social, uninvolved and pessimistic at times. And I'm definately guilty of taking things and people for granted. So if you're reading this, thank you for making the time to care about me, even if you're just stopping by out of curiousity. And if you're a friend of mine (yes you! you know who you are now lol) I LOVE YOU and thank you for being my friend despite me being so irrational and ludicrous so often. LOL. :)

glittermissy @ 4:20 PM + + Permalink

Monday, December 01, 2003 + Happy! +

Too busy to update much still. Much I've got to do and yet to do!

Just to say it has been an unusual week! Both good and bad, but it has ended on a happy note for which I'm really glad.

I've been in touch with a friend I made over EQ the past few weeks and it's pretty amazing how much we've shared. Makes you stop and think, we get so caught up in the goings and comings of our everyday lives to really get to know the people we see everyday. And yet just over the Internet people can come to mean so much to each other in such a short span of time, it's truly mind boggling. :) I'd like to believe that everything happens for a reason, and whatever the reason is for this wonderful friendship, I'm glad for it.

I'll be going away for a week or so in mid December. Finally! Been hoping to do something for such a long time. Gonna take lots of pics, hopefully I'll have some nice ones - will post them online somewhere. :)

Things at home have taken a surprising turn and are looking up. At least, my parents are speaking to each other again and I must say the atmosphere is much happier now. I just feel really relieved - all that tension was really getting to me. I reckon that is part of the reason I'm feeling pretty happy now. :)

Okay, I don't have the patience to write much tonight. Will update again soon. :)

glittermissy @ 1:27 AM + + Permalink