Seriously I should be in bed by now. I promised my Ensemble students I'll be there throughout the whole camp, but I'm going to go in later tomorrow morning. Slack? Irresponsible? Nope, just taking drastic measures to ensure that the other teacher-in-charge does her job. Apparently last Friday she was on duty from 5pm-8pm, but my students saw her leaving at 5 plus. Huh. To think I went back on Monday night cos she couldn't, and she sneaks off on Friday. Then after that she comes and acts so high and mighty in front of me. And when she realises some mistake or some screw up by some other department in college which affects our camp, what does she do? She SMSes me, "So and So just said our camp blah blah. How?" I fix it of course. Talk about taking initiative. Yes, thank you for taking the initiative to SMS me. Sure, that took a hell lot of effort.

I told her that from 9am to 1pm the students will be using the Auditorium to rehearse and our instructor will be around too, hence it's her duty to get the key to the audi from the OM and ensure things go smoothly. I'm just waiting to see what happens when I do get to school. Would she have slacked off to some corner of the school or left? Hmm.

Okay, I'm not a person who likes to tell people what to do. I don't like giving orders, scolding people or treating others like they're stupid. So when people 'feedback' to me that my students this and that, so and so didn't come for practice, they have bad attitude... I know, I could sit them all down and tell them all off. But it's unfair to those who have been there faithfully and practicing faithfully. So I don't like to do it. Anyway, what do you expect me to do? Be in control of every thing they say, do, think, feel, react? I'm their teacher-in-charge, not their bloody fairy god mother.

Another thing that is pissing me off. The intra Gamma house badminton championships - HOW difficult is it for a student committe to understand that whenever you want to organize an activitiy, I must be around as I'm responsible for you? (Like a bloody fairy god mother!) So when I give you a few options regarding time and venue, STOP BARGAINING WITH ME LIKE I'M THE AUNTIE SELLING GOODS AT THE MARKET. I HAVE A LIFE OUTSIDE SCHOOL AND HAVE OTHER COMMITMENTS. I'M NOT FREE 24 HOURS A DAY 7 DAYS A WEEK. Take my bloody options and consider them. If we can agree on a time and date, STICK WITH IT. DON'T SMS ME EVERY HALF HOUR TO CHANGE YOUR BLOODY MIND JUST BECAUSE YOU THINK ANOTHER TIMING IS BETTER. IT IS NOT BETTER FOR ME. I HAVE TOLD YOU WHAT IS BETTER FOR ME. AND YOU AGREED. I AM NOT YOUR PERSONAL ASSISTANT. I AM NOT YOUR BABY SITTER. I AM ALSO NOT THERE TO FULFILL YOUR EVERY WISH. SO STICK TO THE BLOODY DECISION WE MADE!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Is it really so hard to understand why I'm so fucking impatient nowadays? I'm seldom this irate when I'm actually in school cos I keep an iron grip on my emotions (otherwise, some people would sure have lots to say. Heck, some people have lots to say regardless what you say or do anyway). And the only time I'm really myself and I can let all these things out is either ranting like a lunatic here on my blog or screaming about them to John, who sometimes scream back cos my reaction is so violent and it gives him a very rude shock - which he definately does not deserve.

The next time I have to fill out a form and it asks for occupation, this is what I'll write - A 'Teacher' who does everything from baby sitting to fairy god mother to 24/7 call girl to the art of diplomacy in the face of people you absolutely DETEST (and teach occasionally). GOOD GRIEF! Inspire and touch young impressionable minds and lives? A closer description would be Inspiring One's Sanity to Greater Heights!

FFS, gimme a break.

glittermissy @ 2:55 AM + + Permalink