I'd never thought I'd say this but this seems to be my unhappiest point in my life in TJ so far.

This Thursday is the annual staff dinner. I'm going purely for appearances. I hate such events, I really don't see the point in going if the intention is not sincere. But knowing that it's my first half a year in TJ, tongues will wag if I'm not there. And innocent little me didn't know that somehow Winnie and I got arrowed to perform for this momentuous occasion. Somehow she decided that she'd play piano whilst I'd sing. I said there's no way I'll sing, so I somehow ended up agreeing to play flute instead. Don't ask me how, I think I'm much too passive for my own good and I really need to start learning to say "no" even if it offends people. I am really getting sick of pleasing others at the sacrifice of my own happiness. Life is far too short to be living for others and not for myself.

I'm also unhappy over a number of things but I won't mention them here just yet.

Anyway, if you count yourself a friend of mine - I have few I call friends anyway - you should know that I always try to oblige people and yet dislike inconveniencing others. Maybe it's due to this "flaw" in my character that invites people to take advantage of me. I'm going to try and change that - at least, my passivity (if there's such a word) - and learn to say no more. So if I offend you unintentionally, let me apologize in advance.

glittermissy @ 12:43 AM + + Permalink